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My boss walks in after not seeing me for a week and a half (he recently had a baby, I mean his WIFE had a baby but anyhoo) and the first thing he says is "have you lost weight??" Ahhh, I love it. I mean I know it's only about 6 pounds but it feels great to have it noticeable! I am one of those people that loses it in my face and belly first. I wish I could lose it in my thighs. I have thunder thighs, but you know what??? Trying not to hate on my body anymore. Trying to give the ole body some love - for keeping me going everyday. So what if I have thighs like what, what...I can move it all night long! (omg I just channeled Sisqo)

So back to the gym tonight. Back to work out my frustrations. Mr. P and I met yesterday to talk about everything. No, we are not back together. But after 9 months of dating, I agreed to meet face to face. It's been the worst Memorial Day weekend I've ever had. And the sad thing is I really do miss him so much. I don't know if we'll ever work through this, or if it's even possible. But for now, it's just sad.

Oh side note - my mom wants me to go out with this guy her friend knows. (not sure Im' ready to date just yet, but we'll see.) Apparently he's VERY involved in his church. Now, don't get me wrong. I want a man who has God in his life. BUT. I will never go back to the lifestyle that I lived as a child. We were in the church everytime the doors were open. Everything we did was for the church. We eat, lived, breathed, slept the church. I think church is great (I have yet to find one so far that I want to be a part of but I'm still hopeful) But sometimes I think people confuse their relationship with God with their relationship with church itself. Guess what? Churches are made of humans, humans that are flawed. The drama in church can be disapointing. It can really take your mind off of what is truly important. Your relationship with God. It was overwhelming and when I turned 18, I ran away from it so far that I'm amazed I ever came back. But fortunately I'm in a good place now with my spirituality. I have gotten comfortable with prayer again. I read my Bible. We (meaning me and the Big Guy) have a GOOD relationship these days. But I can't help but be anxious about going out with someone who is so involved with the church. I know for those of ya'll that are members of great churches, probably see this as silly or maybe I'm making excuses because I'm not ready to date. All I know is when my mom told me about it, my stomach got a little queasy.

I know, I'm worrying about things that I have no control over. Just putting my thoughts out there today. Does it feel like Monday to ya'll too??

PS I finally joined Twitter, so ya'll follow me (and I'll do the same) so I can feel like I'm not talking to an empty room. LOL!