I think I have mentioned here before that about 5 years ago I lost around 30 pounds with Weight Watchers and have pretty much maintained it ever since. There have been a few times where I have gained a few and then I'll lose a few. But pretty much I've stayed pretty solid within 5 lbs. Of course, I wanted to lose more than that over time. But I have always been pretty proud that I have never had any significant weight gain or setbacks.
Until recently. I'm not going to lie, the last 4 months have been just plain awful in regards to my diet and exercise. It's been a complete and total yo-yo ever since my half marathon and I'm not really sure the reason why. Last night I laid in bed trying to analyze what has gone wrong. I feel so LOST. What reason has led to these sudden feelings of loss of control lately? Why do I feel like I'm spinning? EVERY WEEK I tell myself it's "time to start over" and every week I fail. And every Monday I feel horrible. This morning, I feel worse than I have felt in 5 years, physically. It's a low point for me for sure. I haven't stepped on the scales in weeks, but I'm pretty sure that I've gained at least 10 lbs since November. My pants tell the real truth. They are TIGHT. I also feel sluggish. Tired all the time. Cranky. And quite frankly, I'm angry with myself. I ran a HALF MARATHON in November and it's led to this??? Sigh.
My office is another problem, although I cannot blame it on them. We have food in our office CONSTANTLY. Cakes, pies, muffins, donuts, casseroles, pizza, etc. It's always there. So hard to resist. Not impossible. But when you are feeling out of control, it's hard to resist sometimes. For example, I came in to work this morning and this was on my desk:
I thank the Lord that I have today to start over and do better. And have told my family about my struggles and they are planning to encourage and help me get back on track and focused. I hope I can figure out what is going on with me and why I struggle so much lately.
Have any of you ever had a moment like this? Where you had a serious low point and you turned it around? Any advice is welcome, because I sure do need some inspiration right now.
Meanwhile, I'll be the one at the lunch table. Eating a salad...